“You’re not
going to be famous anymore, Daddy?”
The words
from my son ripped a hole in my soul. He was contemplating the mass layoffs that
had been announced at my newspaper in June, and the end of his father’s
journalism career come Oct. 1.
Being a
journalist made me cool to my son. During our talk that morning, he told me
that he liked to tell his friends I was a reporter and that I covered murder
trials. They always were impressed, he said.
“You’re not going to be famous
anymore, Daddy?”
Those words
continue to haunt me this week as my lingering layoff ends and with it a career
I love. Being a journalist is who I am – whether it’s telling stories of
people’s worst moments, dissecting a matter of great public importance or
writing a restaurant review about some chef’s triumphant food.
I’ve always
said your career either defines you or is a means to an end for your real
passion in life. My sense of self – and how others perceived me – was wrapped
in what I did for a living and the subjects I covered.
Without
that, what am I? Who am I? Guess I’m about to find out.
Now, I
wasn’t famous by any stretch. But I got to know a lot of people, witness spectacular
and whacky moments and chronicle historic, disastrous and bone-chilling events.
I felt journalism was my form of public service. Many reporters my age were
inspired by “All The President’s Men,” and the investigative reporting that
brought down Richard Nixon. I got into journalism to help people understand the
world around them and society in which they live; to help inform the
electorate.
I’m going to
miss the compelling stories and interesting people I covered. I’m going to miss
having an authoritative understanding of the key events that confront our
community and the forum to help readers understand it as well. I will miss the
rich storytelling opportunities my court beat offered. And yes, I will miss the
adrenalin rush of chasing down a breaking story and publishing it.
I hope Oct.
1 brings a new beginning, a new opportunity in my new career as writer,
researcher and gastronome.
But most of
all, I hope that my son’s admiration does not fade, now that his Daddy no
longer is “famous.”
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